Since I’ve started this blog, I’ve ebbed and flowed with what I was doing, where I was going and how I was posting. I allowed the opinions of others, as well as what other bloggers were doing, to influence what I was posting and to be honest, I wasn’t being true to myself. As a result of this, blogging became a chore to me and I would stop doing it for weeks on end. I’ve recently decided to stop the insanity and follow the one good piece of advice I’ve received ” Just Be Yourself “.
Just Be Yourself.
It’s a powerful phrase. Who am I? What do I stand for? What do I like? What don’t I like? It’s food for thought to say the least, and it’s something that has been on my mind for awhile now.
After some reflecting, I can say that I am a mom and wife who always has the best interest of my family in mind. I have struggled with my weight since junior high school and I finally found success through at-home fitness. I am a personal trainer who is not comfortable in a gym setting…at all. I am very shy and often doubt myself. I spend too much time worrying about what other people think of my choices. I struggle with body image and often still see an overweight person in the mirror. I put other peoples needs before my own and often feel burnt out and angry because of that. I am an independent person and have a hard time asking for help…I used to view it as a personal failure. I KNOW that I am meant to do great things and have a purpose in life. For a long time, I lost my personal identity to being a mom/wife and family responsibilities. I only recently began to “find myself” and discover what makes me happy. Coffee makes me happy. I love crisp fall weather and sitting by a fire. Laughter is therapy for my soul. I have a strong desire to get back into running and complete a half marathon. I am a wanna-be traveler and have a list of places I plan on visiting. I LOVE cooking. Buying fresh ingredients and experimenting in the kitchen is my happy place. I am a work in progress.
Self reflection is not an easy thing to do, but it is necessary if you want to be happy.
After making this list, I took some time to review my blog this past weekend. Some of the posts I enjoyed the most were the ones about my personal journey. I started this blog as a journal for myself, so I could look back and see how far I’ve come. As a matter of fact, I never intended for this blog to be public. I’m not an expert, so I don’t think I should be blogging advice, HOWEVER I do know what has worked for me and what hasn’t and by sharing all of that, someone reading this may relate and I may help them. Now THAT is what I set out to do when I decided to make this blog public.
Paying it Forward is something I know I am meant to do.
When I started my weight loss journey, I didn’t have a coach, an accountability group or anyone to guide me. I was on my own and it was a scary thing. I didn’t have a lot of outside support, but thankfully I had the support of my family. I had lots of success when I started and I also had lots of failure. Heck, I still have both to this day! There were days I wanted to give up and just go back to sitting on the couch, shoveling ice-cream into my face. I am thankful everyday that I didn’t do that. I am thankful everyday that I discovered social media and the hashtag for P90X on twitter – it helped me to stay motivated during my first round and kept me moving forward. I am thankful I discovered what coaching was and found an on-line group of like minded people who were doing the same thing as me. I am thankful I shared my blog with someone and they told me I should be sharing this with others. This blog has helped me to find my voice, even if it has also left me feeling lost at times.
Focus on What Matters.
As I move forward with this blog, I will be focusing on what matters. To me, that’s being true to myself, sharing my experiences and helping those who can relate to my story. I will no longer blog about things because I “have to” or because” I should”. I will only blog about things that I truly want to share because I feel passionate about it or because I know someone could benefit from my sharing. What other people think can no longer be a concern of mine – Their happiness is NOT more important than mine! I am making a promise to myself to reclaim this space as my own. To open up, be real and not only share my triumphs, but to share my struggles. There is no such thing as perfect and by trying to portray perfection, we only fool ourselves and rob ourselves of all the amazing things we have achieved, because we become so hung up on all the things we have failed at.
When you Feel like Quitting, Remember WHY you Started.
This little piece of advice can be applied to EVERYTHING in life. When you know WHY you are doing something, you become unstoppable!